Fields Of Charlotte

LINA SCHEYNIUS

So hey, this is an official reintroduction.

What's Up? I'm Charlotte. Some know me as 'Laa', some 'Laa-lotte', some 'beb', some 'darling', some 'baaaabe', some 'gurl', some 'betch', some 'shethead', some 'beautiful', some 'suga mama', and to one 'soul sister'. But I will generally answer to 'Charlotte' most of the time.

I am in Yr 12. I totez work with a youth organisation. I Have the cream of the crop in regards to friends and family.

I am a woman yo. I feel really different. I am so happy. I've only just started to realise why I am so happy. I deserve this.

I wrote this for me. But I want to share it with you. It may not make a lot of sense...but it does to me.

I like my personality.
I like what I can offer.
I don't like my nose.
I like my ability to connect and laugh.
I like that I get scared.
I don't like my tummy.
I like my ever-changing hair.
I don't like my lips.
I like my ability to 'get it'.
I like that I choose how I will get there. Even if I have to wait.
I like my warmth.
I love that I feel. I do. It's rare. No one should let me hate that. It's not fair.
I'm not trapped.
I'm blonde and it's not real.
I'm talking about me.
I can listen.
I wear black - maybe too much!
I am always trying. But when I stop I don't feel like I'm doing anything worthy. But I secretly revel in it.

I am surrounded by intelligence, creativity, truth and bliss. This is what makes me feel lucky. This is what it's all about. What didn't I do to deserve this?

I've come a long way. You should be so proud. You are, I know it. Fuck Yeah Woman! This is your greatness. (They can't take that away)

I am the centre.
I am in the centre.
What is my centre?

Not everything I do is for me. Not everything I do is for you. I like it that way. It makes sense to be balanced and even. When I'm not, I fall, I fall because I have guilt. The guilt makes it worse then I'm really fucked. Today I made the decision to stay and enjoy. Things don't feel out of whack. Things feel fine. In fact things have never felt so good. I'm present. Silent and in love with the people around me. Who knew 'selfish' was the new black?


Enjoy.

I hope you're happy too.

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